While we still were sinners

For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. Indeed, rarely will anyone die for a righteous person– though perhaps for a good person someone might actually dare to die. But God proves his love for us in that while we still were sinners Christ died for us.

The Young Adults’ Bible Study, which meets here on Thursday nights, recently began studying First Corinthians. In our first week, we learned that First Corinthians, like many letters in the New Testament, was written by Paul in the first century. Paul was a former persecutor of Christians who became one of Christianity’s most significant preachers and evangelists. His letters – passed down to us through the Bible – contain a mix of personal history, community instruction, and theology.

Paul was not one of Jesus’ original disciples, but he had an experience of Jesus Christ speaking to him in a flash of light while in the middle of one of his Christian persecution campaigns. It left him literally blind, until God led him to a local church member named Ananias, who reluctantly, but faithfully, prayed that he would be healed in body and soul.

That series of encounters – first with Christ in the flash of light, then with faithful Ananias – changed the course of Paul’s life. Once Christianity’s biggest skeptic, he became its biggest advocate.

As I mentioned, many of the letters in the New Testament were written by Paul, including Romans, which we read from today. Often called epistles, these are real letters that Paul wrote to churches throughout the Greco-Roman world. This world, the world the church was born into, was chaotic. It was marked by extreme class hierarchy, religious oppression, and a head-spinning amount of dynastic drama.

Whether Paul is writing about conflict resolution or the nature of God, we know that he was crafting his message to encourage real people to rise to the challenge of their time and place. And over time, we have also understood that these messages still say something to us. After all, humans are gonna human and we are still subject to many of the same problems as those first century Christians.

Today in Romans, we find ourselves in the middle of one of Paul’s theological speeches. Paul has just made an argument that faith – not works, status, or heritage – is what makes someone eligible for inclusion in God’s promises. Scholar Andrew McGowan suggests that Paul’s use of “faith” in this context can be understood as “trust.”

So, Paul is explaining to the church in Rome what happens when we trust in God. He says that, though life is hard, we can trust that God will transform our suffering. Suffering will build endurance, endurance will build character, and character will lead to hope.

And, Paul says, this hope is not flimsy or aspirational – because it is built on what has already come to pass. Christ has already saved us and filled us with the Holy Spirit, And we are empowered to live, act, and love in his name. No matter what hardship we endure, we are reconciled with the God of the universe and we can trust that his power will be made known in our brokenness.

As Paul points out, we are, indeed, broken…

For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly.

Christ didn’t float down from heaven on a cloud, invite the most beautiful, moral people to his cause, then die for them because they were so pure and sweet and holy. He started his ministry in a farm town, actively avoided befriending the righteous Pharisees, invited hated tax collectors into his friend group, and boldly welcomed a heretical woman (at the well) into the salvation of God.

Paul rightly points out that “rarely will anyone die for a righteous person.” And yet, even for us, Christ was willing to die. Jesus lived and died, and lived again, for a whole bunch of beat-down, bothered, and broken people. And that is more than reason enough to trust him to be with us even when things feel beyond repair.

What’s more, in Christ’s death, he invites us into the same self-sacrifice. In his dying, he showed us that reconciling with God requires being reconciled with all of humanity: ungodly and godly alike, “bad” guy and “good” guy alike. He showed us that empathy, forgiveness, and love are the tools of reconciliation – and they require us to let go of the idea that some people are more deserving of it than others.

This mindset is particularly apparent when we talk about death. And death has been all over the news this week.

In the past few days:

  • I read about the girls’ elementary school that the U.S. bombed in Iran, killing at least 160 people – with at least 300 other civilians and leaders killed in other parts of the country.
  • I read about six U.S. soldiers who died – we didn’t count the other country’s dead soldiers.
  • And I looked at the faces of the four people who died in last Saturday’s mass shooting in Austin – the fourth death being the shooter.

In all of these stories, the public has made their best effort to sort the casualties into deserving and undeserving, innocent and perpetrator, ungodly and godly. We have tried to find justification, if not for the deaths themselves, then for a reason for our grief in some cases and our anger in others.

I dare not make a judgment call. And I dare not suggest to you that your own feelings are unjustified. We have reasons to weep and reasons to rage – and so often our weeping and our raging are just two sides of the same grief.

But Paul reminds us: while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. Christ’s death collapsed the dichotomy – that the only sinless human would die for victim and perpetrator alike is scandalous to our way of thinking; that Christ would dare lump us into the same salvation as the “bad guys” is insulting.

And yet, Christ died. And yet, he invites us all into eternal life. And yet, he calls us to be reconciled, if not in our mortal lives, then in our eternal ones.

While we may not be able to “fix” the sin and death that has already occurred, our reconciling activity now – our empathy, forgiveness, and love – can transform the violence in our hearts into peace that may very well change the course of the future.

To do this, we must build trust with God and one another…

It is no coincidence that Paul, the man who speaks so eloquently about trusting Jesus, first encountered Christ through an act of “blind” trust. While totally vulnerable, he sought out a stranger for healing. And Ananias, equally blindsided, responded to God’s call.

Paul, a faithful Jew, would have been justified in wishing Ananias dead for distorting sacred religious teachings. Ananias, scared for his life, would have been justified in ignoring God’s call to heal Paul. Who was the “good guy” and who was the “bad guy” depended on your point of view.

But they each trusted Christ – and it led them to each other. And it is that trust that led Paul to the church, and his letters, and these words that still instruct us to lay down our pride and reconcile: with God, with one another, with the world.

In the end, our only justification is in Christ. And in Christ, there are no good deaths. There are no true enemies. There is only fumbling humanity – weak and ungodly as we are – taking a step toward one another, and finding God there. Amen.

Gaudete! You are blessed

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From this day all generations will call me blessed: the Almighty has done great things for me, and holy is his Name. Amen. 

Today is one of my favorite days of the year: Gaudete Sunday! Here at Good Shepherd, it also happens to be “Rise Against Hunger” Sunday. (After the service, we will pack 10,000 meals for communities with food insecurity.)

Gaudete, which means “Rejoice,” references an ancient chant used on the third Sunday of Advent. But more broadly, it ties together the theme of today’s readings: JOY! Because we worship a God who “looks with favor on his lowly servants.” 

Joy is abundant throughout Mary’s Magnificat, which we read in place of the Psalm this week. After Mary receives the news that she is pregnant with Jesus, she visits her cousin Elizabeth, who affirms that she has been blessed by God. Moved suddenly by the literal presence of God within her, Mary bursts out in poetic verse. She rejoices, because she recognizes that God is now fulfilling his promise to bring about a just and merciful society – the very one her people had longed for since the world began. 

For Mary, you might say that “the personal is political.” Her individual experience of being blessed by God has expanded her perception of God’s blessing in the world. 

As scholar Luke Timothy Johnson puts it: 

“In the Magnificat, Mary’s praise for what God had done to her personally widens out to include what God does for all who fear Him in every age, including what God is doing for Israel by the birth of its Messiah. As God “showed power in his right hand” by His mighty works in the past, so does he “now take Israel by the hand.’” (Commentary on Luke, Sacra Pagina)

God calls Mary – a poor and powerless woman – to birth the Salvation of the world. In doing so, God shakes up the world, tearing down our assumptions about what blessedness looks like. 

While some of Mary’s words don’t sound like good news to everyone—for example, “the rich he has sent away empty”—God’s activity is actually a great equalizer. No more will some people have too much and others have too little. Everyone has been brought to a level place. 

Mary declares that, in God’s kingdom, blessedness is measured not by power or wealth, but by proximity to the Creator. 

But Mary’s is not the only proclamation of God’s blessing in today’s scripture readings. Our other readings use a framework of physical healing to arrive at the same point. 

In Isaiah, the prophet continues his description of the Kingdom of God, describing both the environment and its people. The scorched desert will be transformed into a never-ending oasis. 

There will also be a physical transformation for humanity. He says: 

“Then the eyes of the blind shall be opened, and the ears of the deaf unstopped; then the lame shall leap like a deer, and the tongue of the speechless sing for joy.” 

In Matthew, Jesus uses similar language to reveal to John that he is the fulfillment of the prophecies in Isaiah. As evidence, he describes his healing miracles:

“the blind receive their sight, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear…” 

It’s important for us to understand that ancient people understood this kind of “healing” as a great equalizer, in the same vein as God’s equalizing action in the Magnificat. 

Then, as today, many people with disabilities lived on the margins of society. Often, they couldn’t work. And if they had a particular disease, they couldn’t even live in town. Over time, these disabilities came to be understood as a consequence of someone’s sin. 

But, when Jesus healed them, he declared before the entire community that disability was not a barrier to following him. He made clear, instead, that disabled people were blessed. 

Many Christians today still read these passages and think that a disabled person is somehow less righteous than them. But we know that’s wrong. 

Because we are a community made up of Deaf people, we know that Deafness is not a thing to repent from. It is not a sign of sin or brokenness. It is simply one way of being human; and it shapes people, culture, and language in ways that reveal God’s blessing. 

And this is where the Magnificat comes back in. In Mary’s telling, the Kingdom of God rejects the world’s narrow understanding of blessedness.  It’s not about accumulating wealth or status, acquiring peak physical fitness, avoiding difficulty, or pretending to be anything other than human. 

In fact, acknowledging that we are human is the most important part. The only thing asked of us in the Magnificat is that we “fear God,” and all that means is that we trust and accept the powerful, life-altering love of God in service of our own unfettered joy, and the joy of the whole world. 

By choosing a poor and powerless woman to fulfill his promises, God makes clear that being imperfect by human standards is not a barrier to entering the Kingdom of God. In fact, being an outsider – whether poor, disabled, or otherwise – is a sign of blessedness in the new world that Christ is ushering in. 

Today, we will work together, shoulder to shoulder, as a response to Mary’s joy, and our own. We will measure, sort, and pack meals in an effort “fill the hungry with good things.” 

We do this not out of obligation, but because our scriptures and experiences make clear that proximity to the poor is proximity to God’s blessing. In acts of care for one another, we are reminded that everyone is equal in God’s kingdom, and that the blessings we have received are God’s desire for the whole world. 

Gaudete! Rejoice! 

alleluia!

easter vigil

As the sun sets, attendees are given an unlit candle. Outside, the light of Christ is lit just as the last light of the sun settles on the horizon. Parishioners process in quietly and await the coming of the light of Christ as it is solemnly paraded down the center aisle. All are aided in lighting their candles from the light of Christ at the front, passing it on, candle by candle to those within their pew. The sanctuary is unlit apart from the growing light of Christ clutched in the hands of this body of individuals, awaiting the readings in silence.

Each contained fire flickers and flares – rhythmically, chaotically, still for just a moment – as members of the congregation recount God’s victory amid despair and oppression. Psalms are chanted in a resonating baritone. The mood is somber, but a quiet hope begins to swell as words of salvation are announced, as the chanting echoes across the high ceilings and glass walls of the sanctuary.

All at once, the room comes alive with light, parishioners ring bells they hid among their belongings, and the organist begins a triumphant song. All stand and sing:

Jesus Christ is risen today, Alleluia!
our triumphant holy day, Alleluia!
who did once upon the cross, Alleluia!
suffer to redeem our loss. Alleluia!

Hymns of praise then let us sing, Alleluia!
unto Christ, our heavenly King, Alleluia!
who endured the cross and grave, Alleluia!
sinners to redeem and save. Alleluia!

But the pains which he endured, Alleluia!
our salvation have procured, Alleluia!
now above the sky he’s King, Alleluia!
where the angels ever sing. Alleluia!

For the first time since Lent began, Alleluia rings out again. The world was dark and cold as a winter night, but Christ is alive and in it and working once again!

tree blossom

The final verse of Wheat that Springeth Green, in particular, rang true for me this year:

When our hearts are wintry, grieving or in pain,
thy touch can call us back to life again,
fields of hearts that dead and bare have been:
love is come again, like wheat that springeth green.

How I needed to exhaust my lungs with the singing of those words! After a long, dark winter, after several weeks of chaos and confusion and self doubt, after 8 months of not dealing with the weight of moving away from everything familiar and comforting, I needed to acknowledge the barren winter in my heart, clear the snow away, and discover joy without limitation in Love springing up again.

He is risen! Alleluia!

first image source: Catholic News/second image: my own

a poem for Advent

Light of Christ

She held it cupped in her wrinkled palms,
across her lifeline, it burned
And fragmented and grew.
She peered in, squinting hard,
Hands to nose
Stars igniting in her eyes.

She clenched it then, tightly
Pushed it away with the force of her now
elongated arm, like a sigh, or fainting,
or a fervent dance.

She didn’t let go.
Afraid, though, of
The Revealing:
over-exposure,
Conviction – no trial necessary

But it hurt, holding its
heat, its heaviness
She shuttered her eyes

Release.
She knows it’s gone.
She can see the sun with her eyelids pinched tight.
A whisper, a knowing – she musters the courage to
Look.

She is enwrapped in a gown of radiance
frothy and feathered and laden with silk,
A light that imparts light
A glow that reveals, not her own:
griminess, despair, darkness.
The light of truth and love,
The light of Christ encroaching on:
decay, vanity, deceit,
Death.

Embraced, ignited,
A girl on fire
Enshrouded in the revealing and
Holy Light of Christ.